I remember the experience I had when it came to the baptism, I remember I had finally made the commitment to really follow Jesus, after what I would say is and on and off relationship. As I grew up in a home that preached conversion. I remember I was seeking God and wanted everything to do with Him, and I know I was praying for this baptism of the Holy Spirit and the gifts of the Holy Spirit. I wasn’t unfamiliar with it, as I come from a Pentecostal home, it’s just that I didn’t have the experience of its truth. It was an evening service that I went to that day,… I was writing exams the next day and I really needed to study, so I was very reluctant to go, but my then boyfriend, now husband was very persistent that we go. He rocked up at the door, and I had to rush to get ready as, I had said no, and had no intention of going. I don’t regret not going and am so grateful for his persistence that day..lol .. I remembered we were singing and worshipping and I had my hands lifted up, I can’t remember what we singing.. but I remember the atmosphere it was so peaceful. The voices all in unison singing to the Creator. And I don’t recall if my eyes were open or if they were closed, but I saw myself, I was engulfed in flames, flames enveloping me and flames coming out of my mouth. Needless to say I was shocked, because I didn’t know if it was real or not. All I know is what I saw. So I sat down, I remember asking in my heart, Lord show me in your word. So I just took my bible, and immediately my hands started flipping through the pages. It was like I didn’t have control over them. But I stopped at John 3:5 where Jesus answered, Truly, truly, I say to you, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God, and the words popped out at me from the page, like I was seeing it for the first time.. and then my hand started moving again, I really couldn’t stop it, I just paged..and I stopped at Mark 9 : 49..For every one shall be salted with fire, and every sacrifice shall be salted with salt. And again it just stood out from the page. I never had a memory of this particular verse. I knew the Nicodemus story well. But I liked this verse because it spoke to what I just saw earlier… but I sat in that pew.. just thinking about what just happened.. thinking about those scriptures and what it could all possibly mean. Now we were young and wanted to follow after God, so we didn’t stop at that service, we heard of a friends church who also had a service that evening and we went.. “church hopping”…lol .. I remember the message from that service, 2 Corinthians 5:7 for we walk by faith and not by sight. After the preacher was done preaching we were worshipping and I saw what you would call a wave of wind coming towards me and I opened my mouth and started speaking in tongues. It was a wonderful experience, I felt so loved. So as we continued worshipping, the preacher called me and a few other people out of the crowd. And he prayed he didn’t need to lay a hand on me, I was just “slain” in the Spirit... To this day God has been faithful.. fire purifies like salt…
I still experience his winnowing fan, when he separates the wheat from the chaff in my life. Sometimes it’s difficult to welcome it, but you see He is a Holy God, and we are called to be holy to. God consumes with fire what is not needed, what is a hindrance and what will hinder.. I’m reminded of the mixed multitude that came with the Israelites as they left Egypt and caused them to anger God when they lusted after meat.. and God destroyed them with fire as they camped along the outskirts, so too is it with the things in my life.. he destroys what “encamps on the outskirts". Even with Peter, as God allowed Satan to sift him as wheat is sifted, knowing what had to be separated from his life in order for Him to be of service to the Lord whom he loved.
Fire purifies, it refines. It brings forth light... when I read about those disciples in that upper room..as the flames of fire were on there heads.. I see the lampstand /candles that was lit and put on a hill and not hidden , so that others could see the light of God and glorify Him.