12/01/2014 my x land lord raised the lot rent from $150 to $750 a month. I got on my knees and prayed God delivered me to a house owner finance. I get here and i am just over overwhelmed with repairs no money no way to fix it . granted the house payment is cheaper then what the $750 lot rent would of been. I am great-full but at the same time i am regretful. I never felt so bad before. I am thinking i made a wrong choice. I asked for a door to be opened and this one was the only door. now i question what pushed me in to it. I am great full where God has brought me but i am just drowning in the problems it has made. It just feels like i am drowning with no hope. Nothing is going right as it did before in life. I just followed directions something told me to move. I was getting beat up at churches. the church people would tamper with my scooter cut my brake cables and all they almost hurt me badly. I trusted in what i though was the voice from God telling me to take this. Now i even question it. I was hoping to rent rooms to help fix it but no body here wants to rent a room. It is just like i want to Say God you got me here now what? I never know i was possible to feel blessed and hopeless at the same time. I am berried in debt everything is just getting worse I need deliverance. I prayed and prayed about it something told me to go here now i am here and stuck. I question even following this path. I should of stayed right where i was until the land lord kicked me out for none payment. I don't know what to think no more. I even question God's directions on my life. between being in pain 24/7 and nothing going right i think it is starting to trigger my depression again.