Leet
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As someone who has suffered from OCD all my life, I can relate to this one too.
When I was in my mid-teens, I was listening to my Dad talking about the Holy Spirit and I said something kinda smug and disrespectful. Dad snapped, "watch your language" at me. I skulked off down to my room. A few minutes later, I started panicking. I remembered the verse about the unforgivable sin. I grabbed my Bible and found it. My eyes were burning, my heart was pounding.
I spent the next few days crying in secret, not eating, unresponsive to my family, convinced I had "turned numb" and that I'd committed this sin.
On Wednesday night, however, I went along to youth Bible study as usual, feeling very quiet. Pastors wife, who ran the group, stopped talking fairly early on and said, "I believe there is someone here who feels they may have blasphemed the Holy Spirit." (My heart practically stopped) "God is telling me to let you know that he loves you and you haven't committed the unforgivable sin."
I kept my face totally blank but was dying from RELIEF on the inside!
Even after that, I have had a few hiccups occasionally with this one. But I draw my mind back to that night when that woman, a highly discerning prophetess, brought me so much relief straight from God. And I want you to realize, it's a massively common fear! Don't let it get to you!
Here's a link you will find helpful.
http://www.net-burst.net/guilty/sin.htm
When I was in my mid-teens, I was listening to my Dad talking about the Holy Spirit and I said something kinda smug and disrespectful. Dad snapped, "watch your language" at me. I skulked off down to my room. A few minutes later, I started panicking. I remembered the verse about the unforgivable sin. I grabbed my Bible and found it. My eyes were burning, my heart was pounding.
I spent the next few days crying in secret, not eating, unresponsive to my family, convinced I had "turned numb" and that I'd committed this sin.
On Wednesday night, however, I went along to youth Bible study as usual, feeling very quiet. Pastors wife, who ran the group, stopped talking fairly early on and said, "I believe there is someone here who feels they may have blasphemed the Holy Spirit." (My heart practically stopped) "God is telling me to let you know that he loves you and you haven't committed the unforgivable sin."
I kept my face totally blank but was dying from RELIEF on the inside!
Even after that, I have had a few hiccups occasionally with this one. But I draw my mind back to that night when that woman, a highly discerning prophetess, brought me so much relief straight from God. And I want you to realize, it's a massively common fear! Don't let it get to you!
Here's a link you will find helpful.
http://www.net-burst.net/guilty/sin.htm
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