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I don't want him to take the blame for it; I just don't know how to undo what I've already done.
I am willing to go back to the police and retract the allegation even if it means that I go to jail for having made the allegation in the first place. For me to go to jail for domestic violence, DH would have to press charges. If he does that, I'm more than willing to confess - heck, I've already tried to confess. But I can't make them lock me up for that if they don't want to. I've already told the police that I've been violent with him, and they said, in these exact words, "doesn't matter, doesn't make a difference". He has to make an allegation for anything I accuse myself of to count.
Peck, clearly what's done is done here. You guys were fighting, he pulled your hair and pushed you to the ground and pinned you down, and now he's answering to the legal consequences for those actions. HIS actions are HIS responsibility whether they were a REaction to you or not. It doesn't matter in the eyes of the law if you provoked him. He stepped over the line and what he did was domestic violence. He can sulk all he wants, but he is simply facing the legal consequence to getting physical with your wife.
Obviously you have anger management issues as well. Instead of trying to figure out a way to get yourself in jail somehow and your dh off scot-free somehow, why don't you switch gears and shift your attention to GETTING PROFESSIONAL HELP?!
I would like, and I've always wanted this and asked DH for this from about 3 months into our marriage, for us BOTH to get some help. I've never tried to "get away with" what I'm doing. But I'm not allowed to involve anyone else in the marriage. I'm not allowed to talk to anyone about what's going on, or what we're both doing to each other. Calling the police was the first time I'd ever involved anyone else, and I realise I picked the wrong people to involve.
No, you just let it go to the point where the only people who could help in the heat of the moment were the police. Calling them wasn't wrong, but not getting help earlier was a mistake. The only way to make things better now is to get help going forward. And what is this about not being allowed to talk to people? Is that under threat of violence from your h or do you just mean that he wants his privacy and doesn't want to get help with you? Because quite frankly, he cannot stop you from getting help for yourself, and that's what you need right now. Stop looking for his permission, consent and approval and do what you need to do to be a healthy adult, Whether you stay married or not, this is what you have to do in order to stop self-destructing and lashing out.
I don't care about who's more right and who's more wrong. I'll take the blame for any or all of it if it makes things better. I just want us to be working on the marriage instead of tearing each other apart.
This is all backwards. You're so desperate for him to want to be with you that you're prepared to do anything, right or wrong, truthful or not. You've already admitted to the police that the violence was mutual. You've done your part. Your h made his bed when he got violent with you; he needs to face that down. If he presses charges on you, you can face that down. But otherwise, don't go making crap up just to punish yourself in some dishonest way. You be responsible for yourself and let your husband be responsible for himself. And stop fixating on the marriage and start fixating on your need for professional help. Anything less at this point is a waste of time and will probably make the mess messier.
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