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I just realized something the other nite while I was laying in bed.
I realized how the first 2 yrs working at my current job, I really didn't let anyone influence me in any really bad ways and I tried to dismiss and/or disregard everyone else when they spoke of sexual stuff and other things i kno i shoudn't be involved in,
but, over the last few months, I've noticed myself sliding a bit. I will admit though, and i hate admitting this to anyone but, for the last 8 yrs or so, I've had a HUGE issue w/ sexual sin - became free of it for a bit, but, i guess now i've just gotten so used to all the talk at work that I've been a big instigator on the issue and i've even suggested my supervisor who's big into sex, i suggested to her to check out this 18+ 3d virutal world for adults only and I know I shouldn't do it, but, i say/do it anyway.
I feel like i'm really bein drawn in the wrong way bc a few people at my job kno I'm a christian n stuff and I don't want to give them the wrong impression but, i dunno what to do.
And my supervisor, she has a HUGE potty mouth and i'm just so used to it and for the last 2 1/2 yrs, I've ignored all those words but, now, I'm even starting to use them and i dunno.
As for this sexual stuff, my supervisor n others are trying to get my hooked up w/ a guy and, i want nothing to do w/ dating right now bc, honestly, I have not had sex yet - not real sex anyway (only online, cybersex deal a long time ago) and I kno I don't want to have sex til I'm married, but, i can't control all these feelings inside of me - its sooo annoying - The smallest thing can turn me on and I HATE that which is why I've totally avoided dating anyone all these years bc I know I would give into the temptation to give into these sexual desires
I dunno what to do w/ work - any ideas???
Some people are really trying to hook me up w/ diff guys - so far, I've said no to all of their attempts at getting me to date someone, but, its wearing thin on my soul - i so want to give in but its that battle - good vs. evil and for myself now, i honestly feel like evil is starting to take over and win.
I kno I've been told to turn n run the other way when tempted but thats tough to do at work and i face this situation and others at work each day n i just dunno what to do anymore.
I have prayed about this situation but, seems when i pray the temptations and talk of sexual stuff gets worse and when i don't pray about it, then i'm not tempted as much - whats up w/ that?!?
I "feel" like a huge hypocrite bc at work, i live like everyone else but at home, i try n act like this little angel - like nothing is wrong and i'm doin great in my christian journey when in reality, i feel like i'm fallin down hard. I haven't really been attending church since I still don't have a home church to go to yet and i don't have many christian friends anymore so, its drawing me thin.
I realized how the first 2 yrs working at my current job, I really didn't let anyone influence me in any really bad ways and I tried to dismiss and/or disregard everyone else when they spoke of sexual stuff and other things i kno i shoudn't be involved in,
but, over the last few months, I've noticed myself sliding a bit. I will admit though, and i hate admitting this to anyone but, for the last 8 yrs or so, I've had a HUGE issue w/ sexual sin - became free of it for a bit, but, i guess now i've just gotten so used to all the talk at work that I've been a big instigator on the issue and i've even suggested my supervisor who's big into sex, i suggested to her to check out this 18+ 3d virutal world for adults only and I know I shouldn't do it, but, i say/do it anyway.
I feel like i'm really bein drawn in the wrong way bc a few people at my job kno I'm a christian n stuff and I don't want to give them the wrong impression but, i dunno what to do.
And my supervisor, she has a HUGE potty mouth and i'm just so used to it and for the last 2 1/2 yrs, I've ignored all those words but, now, I'm even starting to use them and i dunno.
As for this sexual stuff, my supervisor n others are trying to get my hooked up w/ a guy and, i want nothing to do w/ dating right now bc, honestly, I have not had sex yet - not real sex anyway (only online, cybersex deal a long time ago) and I kno I don't want to have sex til I'm married, but, i can't control all these feelings inside of me - its sooo annoying - The smallest thing can turn me on and I HATE that which is why I've totally avoided dating anyone all these years bc I know I would give into the temptation to give into these sexual desires
I dunno what to do w/ work - any ideas???
Some people are really trying to hook me up w/ diff guys - so far, I've said no to all of their attempts at getting me to date someone, but, its wearing thin on my soul - i so want to give in but its that battle - good vs. evil and for myself now, i honestly feel like evil is starting to take over and win.
I kno I've been told to turn n run the other way when tempted but thats tough to do at work and i face this situation and others at work each day n i just dunno what to do anymore.
I have prayed about this situation but, seems when i pray the temptations and talk of sexual stuff gets worse and when i don't pray about it, then i'm not tempted as much - whats up w/ that?!?
I "feel" like a huge hypocrite bc at work, i live like everyone else but at home, i try n act like this little angel - like nothing is wrong and i'm doin great in my christian journey when in reality, i feel like i'm fallin down hard. I haven't really been attending church since I still don't have a home church to go to yet and i don't have many christian friends anymore so, its drawing me thin.