me and her have been spending a lot of time together because she flew from louisiana to here to visit us and stuff. anyways, yesterday we were sitting on my couch watching tv. i switched to a channel showing COPS and she told me to switch the channel. i laughed and said no and she said "come on." i said no again and she tried grabbing the remote from my hand. i switched it to my right hand (she was sitting on the left of me) and held it away from her. one thing led to another and she was on top of me on the ground laughing. i was laughing too but suddenly i thought she was really sexy. i knew that she was considered "hot" before but i never thought of her that way. i'm pretty sure she thinks the same way about me because she became really awkward after that and there have been a lot of other signs.
what should i do? if i go for it and our family finds out, we'll never be able to go back. on the other hand, she's really hot.
oh and i plan to [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] her soon, i wonder if its incest
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i decided to go for it. today i went into her room and said "i need to talk to you." she says "ok" uncertainly and i sit down on her bed and being, " okay hira, recently i've started to develop some feelings towards you. like... sexual feelings." i look at her and she has this [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing horribly mortified expression on her face. i had a feeling something was wrong but i continued. "and i know you've had the same feelings towards me..." here she stares at me with the widest eyes i've ever seen her look at someone with and chokes out "uh... i don't have any kinds of those feelings towards you." here it was my turn to be completely mortified. i just said "oh" and got the [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] outta her room as fast as i could. and so here i am, on the computer and a few minutes since going into her [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing room. good grief
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i need some advice. what the [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] should i do now? i can't take back what the [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] i said. should i go on and continue to talk to her and pretend it never happened? or should i talk to her again (what could i say)?
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ok so lot of you suggested to pretend it was joke or something but she's definitely not gonna buy that. i'll just pretend it never happened and talk to her like everything was normal. i'll update later after i see how she responds. wish me luck.
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well what a big [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing tangled web we weave. So i go to her room but then she told me get lost so i just go to my room holding my nut sac. (i dont know why)
so now my sister knows. background: my cousin has been my sister's best friend for the longest time. they basically grew up next to each other. also, my sister is one of those hard-core muslims. meaning she's against gays, totally doesn't believe in evolution, etc. well i got a knock on my door a while ago and she asked to come in. i said "yeah" and she asked me if it was true. i said "yeah." she just looked at me for a couple seconds with a twisted expression on her face and asked, "now why would you do something like that?" i answered, "i don't know, i really had sexual feelings for her." at this point, she shakes her head and says, "you have some major problems. incest is sick. it's a sin." she goes on with a huge lecture about, you guessed it, genetic defects and such. then at the end, she says, "i'm going to have to tell mom and dad about this." and here i'm completely taken off guard. i thought that this was the worst that could happen because i knew my sister and cousin were really close already before. but i never thought that my sister would take it as far as telling my parents. after she said that, i grabbed her and said "oh my god farheen don't tell mom and dad please don't." i was on my [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing knees and almost crying. she says, "no i have to. if you want to have sex with your cousin, it means that there's something seriously wrong with you. we need to get you to a therapist." i'm not usually violent but at the moment something overcame me and i grabbed her arm and pulled her down to the ground. i tell her "don't tell" in a menacing tone and she yells "let go of me!" and runs out of the room. and here i am again, posting this [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] on CF. i haven't talked to my cousin yet though. that's definitely gonna be worse than what just happened. [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth].
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she and my sister didnt tell my parents. though now she wants me to come to her when everyone is asleep
what should i do? if i go for it and our family finds out, we'll never be able to go back. on the other hand, she's really hot.
oh and i plan to [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] her soon, i wonder if its incest
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i decided to go for it. today i went into her room and said "i need to talk to you." she says "ok" uncertainly and i sit down on her bed and being, " okay hira, recently i've started to develop some feelings towards you. like... sexual feelings." i look at her and she has this [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing horribly mortified expression on her face. i had a feeling something was wrong but i continued. "and i know you've had the same feelings towards me..." here she stares at me with the widest eyes i've ever seen her look at someone with and chokes out "uh... i don't have any kinds of those feelings towards you." here it was my turn to be completely mortified. i just said "oh" and got the [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] outta her room as fast as i could. and so here i am, on the computer and a few minutes since going into her [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing room. good grief
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i need some advice. what the [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] should i do now? i can't take back what the [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] i said. should i go on and continue to talk to her and pretend it never happened? or should i talk to her again (what could i say)?
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ok so lot of you suggested to pretend it was joke or something but she's definitely not gonna buy that. i'll just pretend it never happened and talk to her like everything was normal. i'll update later after i see how she responds. wish me luck.
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well what a big [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing tangled web we weave. So i go to her room but then she told me get lost so i just go to my room holding my nut sac. (i dont know why)
so now my sister knows. background: my cousin has been my sister's best friend for the longest time. they basically grew up next to each other. also, my sister is one of those hard-core muslims. meaning she's against gays, totally doesn't believe in evolution, etc. well i got a knock on my door a while ago and she asked to come in. i said "yeah" and she asked me if it was true. i said "yeah." she just looked at me for a couple seconds with a twisted expression on her face and asked, "now why would you do something like that?" i answered, "i don't know, i really had sexual feelings for her." at this point, she shakes her head and says, "you have some major problems. incest is sick. it's a sin." she goes on with a huge lecture about, you guessed it, genetic defects and such. then at the end, she says, "i'm going to have to tell mom and dad about this." and here i'm completely taken off guard. i thought that this was the worst that could happen because i knew my sister and cousin were really close already before. but i never thought that my sister would take it as far as telling my parents. after she said that, i grabbed her and said "oh my god farheen don't tell mom and dad please don't." i was on my [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing knees and almost crying. she says, "no i have to. if you want to have sex with your cousin, it means that there's something seriously wrong with you. we need to get you to a therapist." i'm not usually violent but at the moment something overcame me and i grabbed her arm and pulled her down to the ground. i tell her "don't tell" in a menacing tone and she yells "let go of me!" and runs out of the room. and here i am again, posting this [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth]ing [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] on CF. i haven't talked to my cousin yet though. that's definitely gonna be worse than what just happened. [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth].
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she and my sister didnt tell my parents. though now she wants me to come to her when everyone is asleep