http://www.christianforums.com A new subforum for the support of those suffering from depression. en Mon, 23 Nov 2009 06:00:16 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.christianforums.com/style/misc/rss.jpg http://www.christianforums.com http://www.christianforums.com/t7419709/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 05:27:43 GMT Image: http://i306.photobucket.com/albums/nn273/icrushalot/Hug-2.jpg amidst the ice x

amidst the ice x ]]> Depression loved33 http://www.christianforums.com/t7419709/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7419525/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 12:21:43 GMT What do you do when not even your psychiatrist is willing/able to help you appropriately? Mine refuses to adjust my medication, in spite of my constant suicidal mindset, claiming that my problems are only 30% medical. She laughs when I make a potentially strange comment and refuses to believe... What do you do when not even your psychiatrist is willing/able to help you appropriately? Mine refuses to adjust my medication, in spite of my constant suicidal mindset, claiming that my problems are only 30% medical. She laughs when I make a potentially strange comment and refuses to believe that I experience anxiety. She just sits there with her head tilted, staring at me while I rant on, then says stuff like, "Well, just ignore the bad feelings". I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know where to turn or how to pray. I can't shake off this pessimism and cynicism. Nothing feels worth it anymore. Why bother? I feel ugly and useless and like I shouldn't be here. I just want to end it all and stop feeling so utterly depressed. What must I do?? ]]> Depression AfricanSunset http://www.christianforums.com/t7419525/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7419296/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 08:25:12 GMT God, please spare me from having to live in this fallen, painfilled world any longer. Please take me home to be with you in heaven tonight through a quick and easy death for me in my sleep tonight. Please God, don't force me to live in this sin-cursed, cruel world for even one more day. Please exercise your authority by ending my sad, fearful life in this world; and take me through death to live with You in the highest heaven with your Son, my Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ. I beg that of you God. Please say yes and take me to heaven today. I can't take another day of fear, uncertaintly, anger, frustration, failure, and danger about my life on earth. It is too much torture to endure this much fear and stress about my future in this life. Please have pity on me God the Father, and the Lord Jesus Christ, and please, please decide to take me up to be with you in heaven today! Thank you God for making heaven my home at all, as your gift to me in Jesus Christ's death payment for my sins on the cross. Without Your shed blood, I would be going straight to hell upon my death. So thank you God for making heaven my home for sure in the person and work of Jesus Christ, who died for my sins. And was bodily raised from the grave by God the Father for my justification. I thank you for the gift of heaven God in Christ; I just wish you would let me come up there to heaven sooner rather than later. So that I can have the burdens and pains of this life over as soon as possible; and start enjoying heaven as soon as possible.

Merciful Father, if there is any way possible that you can make this happen for me, then I plead with you to do so through your Son, the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.:prayer: ]]> Depression TomCS http://www.christianforums.com/t7419296/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7419277/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 04:54:58 GMT Hi all, My job is EVERYTHING that I expected. I am outcasted but oh well, I KNEW that was coming. No one really talks to me, they had established their OWN little cliques. Anyway, I am TOO sweet looking to fit in, but that is not really what is bothering me cause I knew that was going to happen to... Hi all,
My job is EVERYTHING that I expected. I am outcasted but oh well, I KNEW that was coming. No one really talks to me, they had established their OWN little cliques. Anyway, I am TOO sweet looking to fit in, but that is not really what is bothering me cause I knew that was going to happen to me, I JUST KNEW IT but I was prepared. Even when I was introduced to the new crew (about 15 people) this one woman looked me up and down with a nasty snarl look on her face, like "what the hell is she doing here", BUT again I knew that was coming, remember I do NOT wear make up and I am VERY sweet looking, oh well.
Here is what I was NOT prepared for.
The good thing that sour apple bully lady roommate is moving out, BUT the sad thing she is taking the good sweet hearted roommate/friend with her. THat means that there are two extra rooms to fill. I have no friends but my best friend who also lives here (the one with OCD) so offering the place to one of my friends is OUT of the questions cause I don't have any.
The owner of this home is best friends with that old sour roommate so you can imagine what her personality is like, I know that she does NOT let the other roommates meet who she choses to live here, that is bad. This has caused panic attacks all day and a desperate need to CRY, yep I have been fighting the tears ALL DAY at work cause of this shock. Why cause I am SO scared that a thug will move in and my virginity will cease to exist (raped) and/or I will be robbed, I am MORTIFIED of this
Tried to open up to that nasty male roommate about this issue he just started to make fun of my depression AGAIN, yeah he is staying here too. :(
So folks I am faced with two options AGAIN ONE is I have sent many emails out to people who need roommates HOPEFULY God will provide and God will find a GREAT place for me to live at.
Or I am leaving, not kidding I know that you all have heard me say this but I AM NOT living with a possible THUG. One has lived here before my best friend and I got here, I have heard the stories about him. NO WAY, I am living in that condition, outside in the cold sounds like a LUXERY compared to living with a thug...no way.
I only ask for you all to pray for me. :pray:Pray for God to PROTECT ME, I don't want to run, my job is not horrible, I want to prove myself at this job to God cause I know I can make it, just if that one woman that I just described at work does NOT try to back stab me and get me fired, being sweet looking has that disavantage.
Thank you in advance on this matter if you should have any advice I am all ears!
Thanks and God bless you all LOTS OF LOVE!:hug: ]]> Depression aflower4God http://www.christianforums.com/t7419277/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7419250/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 02:57:42 GMT I feel like I'm stuck in a never-ending cycle and can't get out. I'm 32 and single. I've never been married. I have an 11 year old daughter. Due to financial difficulties, my daughter and I moved into my parent's house two and a half years ago with the intention of only staying here for one year. Each day I'm here I feel more and more depressed.

I do not have any close friends. I know people, work with people, and there are a few people that I hang out with occasionally. But I am not important to anyone. There isn't anyone that loves me. I can't remember the last time I've been hugged.

A month ago I went to a party that a co-worker gave and proceeded to drink too much and get drunk. I rarely go out and I rarely drink, but I had a weekend on my own so I guess I decided to let loose... The next thing I know, my co-worker said I could stay at his house so I wouldn't have to drive and he said that I could stay in his guest room with another man. This other man had been hitting on me and as I drank more, I flirted more. Well, I stupidly went this man to the guest room and we started to get more physical but I told him that I was NOT going to have sex. He pushed and pushed and I finally gave in. I am SO ashamed of myself. I made a commitment to God and to myself that I would remain pure until marriage but I broke that promise. I feel completely worthless.

I feel like I have no one in my life to count on. I pray all the time, but so far God has not answered my prayers. I know he answers prayers on his own time, but at this rate I feel like I will be alone and lonely my whole life. I feel like God won't answer my prayers because of all the mistakes and terrible things I've done in my life.

I feel like giving up, but I can't. I have to be "mom" and put on a happy face for my daughter. On the outside, I don't think anyone realizes how unhappy I truly am. But on the inside I'm screaming for someone to understand me, someone to love me, someone to think that I'm important enough to call, to talk to, to hug. I just don't know what to do anymore...

I realize this post may be slightly confusing to read, but I can't seem to get my thoughts out in any logical order. Thanks for listening... ]]> Depression waiting4himj http://www.christianforums.com/t7419250/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7419218/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 00:01:31 GMT A few yellows to help you overcome some recent blues. Turning on my special sun lamp for you. :) Image: http://lizardboys.com/blessingcard7.jpg Love, Robert A few yellows to help you overcome some recent blues. Turning on my special sun lamp for you. :)



Love, Robert ]]> Depression plumsink http://www.christianforums.com/t7419218/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7419189/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:17:46 GMT im fine:) im fine:) ]]> Depression Jo1 http://www.christianforums.com/t7419189/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7419167/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:06:25 GMT im just so useless:cry:no good to anyone, cant even encourage or just not talk about myself anymore. Im SELF CENTERED, and im better off not being here..:cry::(:( im just so useless:cry:no good to anyone, cant even encourage or just not talk about myself anymore. Im SELF CENTERED, and im better off not being here..:cry::(:( ]]> Depression Jo1 http://www.christianforums.com/t7419167/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7419058/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 10:22:30 GMT This has been a hard night for me, on many levels. Firstly, my bones ache with every change in weather, which we are having right now with a cold front moving in. It sometimes feels like a slow motion torture, it abates, but it never fully goes away. I think I am having symptoms of fibromyalgia,... This has been a hard night for me, on many levels.

Firstly, my bones ache with every change in weather, which we are having right now with a cold front moving in. It sometimes feels like a slow motion torture, it abates, but it never fully goes away. I think I am having symptoms of fibromyalgia, the things I am going through fit. There is pain but no swelling.

Second, for a period of time tonight I felt very separated from my Lord and very lonely. The separation part feels a little better now, still feeling very isolated.

Thirdly, for some months I have been having very annoying leg spasms as I am falling asleep. I think another poster here, spazlegs, has a similar problem. It is absolutely infuriating to me, just as I am falling asleep I get this very annoying involuntary leg jerk going on which wakes me up again.

I finally resorted to alcohol tonight, which I haven't drank in a long time but I was at wits end. It remains to be seen whether it will help, I am going to try again, here at 4:20 AM, to go to sleep.

Pray for me, love to all of you,

Robert ]]> Depression plumsink http://www.christianforums.com/t7419058/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7418633/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 22:10:05 GMT I wanted to share a new artwork of mine with my friends. I did it for an upcoming entry in my blog. Image: http://lizardboys.com/implicitentelechywebsmall.jpg The blog post is basically about how so many people (not just depression sufferers who have a medical reason) are not happy or... I wanted to share a new artwork of mine with my friends. I did it for an upcoming entry in my blog.



The blog post is basically about how so many people (not just depression sufferers who have a medical reason) are not happy or healthy. I look around me in a grocery store or a parking lot and there are so many unhappy people, you can just see that they're unhappy. Part of the reason is that they aren't in touch with their reason for being here, the purpose for human beings, which is to become children of God.

The picture is intended to sort of represent a harmonious order.

Hugs, Robert ]]> Depression plumsink http://www.christianforums.com/t7418633/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7418577/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 18:27:40 GMT I have severe PMDD. It has lasted 20 years. Off and on, treatments would help, and then the med's stopped working. In my younger days, it would lead to terrible fights with my husband and then I would start my period and think how could I ever think that and then you deal with alot of remorse and shame and regret. There can be alot of denial with the condition.
That brings me to my daughter. She is 24 years old but has suffered with it from about 16 to now with very severe symptoms. Debilitating fatique, depressed and anxious, can't sleep, and now extreme rage. She has tried many different birth control pills to see it that would help, but that worked for a month and then she would turn into a maniac person in rage, cussing her husband out with awful words and even slapping him.
This has turned into worse and worse with verbal and physical abuse on both sides They are in christian couseling now. They had arguments before marriage, but she never even raised her voice to him. The problem I think now is going on is that the counselor cannot fully understand how this severe condition affects them both. She is dealing with coming from the spiritual aspects, but this is an extreme debilitating medical condition. The problem is there is not real understanding in the christian community on it. So therefore, you cannot find real understanding and then deal with all the aspects.
I don't believe it is healthy for her to talk to me about their issues at all. I believe the only reason she is, is because I'm the only person who has the extreme condition. I am in the process with my counselor's help, in learning how to deal with my life and my thinking and of course, stress that I don't need.
My daughter needs help, it is so hard not to listen to her situations, because if I had not had my sisters to help me thru it(always supporting me and my husband) I don't think I would be married today.
I can see this is making me feel worse and worse. I prayed about it so much yesterday, and felt some peace. And also realization that I have no control over her situation. But that doesn't help, but I know what the condition feels like and the fights and how it all affects you so much emotionally. How can I help my daughter, but still take care of myself. How can I not leave her alone with no one to Talk to thats understands this condition.
She has been reluctant to try med's because she has had severe side effects from them(one time an antibiotic caused her to be suicidal) But now she knows she has no choice. I have any looked up medical clinics that treat women's mood disorders. Johns Hopkins has one. If I knew what I knew now, long ago I would have gone up there. I wasted so much time on doc's that wanted to help, but didn't really have the full knowledge of it all. Thanks for listening, this was way too long. ]]> Depression maycin19 http://www.christianforums.com/t7418577/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7418518/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 10:41:44 GMT Hi everyone. :wave: Please don't be confused by my thread title. I obviously believe that Catholics are Christians since I am a Catholic.

Anyway, I am seriously considering switching to a Catholic therapist. I believe a Catholic therapist would be better able to help me with my religion switching and such. Pray for me that I could get in to see a good therapist. ]]> Depression Ave Maria http://www.christianforums.com/t7418518/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7417958/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 08:04:33 GMT I've been ill with depression for three years. I'm only 20, and despite the myriad of drugs and doctors I have seen, I'm getting worse and not better. I've never had a job, can't get educated and basically have no future.

I pray every night that God will let me die in my sleep.

I've attempted suicide twice. Right now I just feel like a drain on the world. There are people who are homeless, cold, hungry, abused. The money that is funding me and my pointless depression could be going to actually help people.

I just want to know when it will be okay to give up and die. Because I can't keep going like this. ]]> Depression BasinBrat http://www.christianforums.com/t7417958/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7417954/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 07:36:27 GMT Please pray that my nieces Jessica and Kelly will trust in Jesus Christ as their own personal Savior according to the truth of the Gospel in the Bible. Up until now, they have been raised in a non-Christian cult, which has filled thier minds with lies and deceptions about how they may be saved. ... Please pray that my nieces Jessica and Kelly will trust in Jesus Christ as their own personal Savior according to the truth of the Gospel in the Bible. Up until now, they have been raised in a non-Christian cult, which has filled thier minds with lies and deceptions about how they may be saved. They are being taught to rely on good works, and religious sacrements to save their souls and commend them to God. That is a false Gospel which will not save them. Please ask God to make my nieces see why this alternative method of salvation is hopeless and cannot save them. I really love my nieces and I want them to be with me in heaven forever in the presence of God's glory. Please ask God to make manifest to Jessica and Kelly the true message; that He will freely save and justify both of them, if they will trust in the Lord Jesus Christ to save them completely by His work on the cross for them. It terrifies me and breaks my heart to think that my dear, beloved nieces will die unsaved and spend eternity in hell. Merciful Father, please forbid that from happening. Please give my beloved nieces the faith they need to positively respond to your offer of salvation to them; and let them trust in Christ as their Savior honestly, and completely, and exclusively; and save them by them putting their faith in the complete sufficiency of the redemptive work that you performed on the cross for the redemption and forgiveness of all of Jessica's and Kelly's sins.

Fellow members on this board, I beg you to ask God to save my nieces by giving them faith to accept the Lord Jesus Christ as their own personal Savior. Thank you so much for reading and for your prayers, Tom. ]]> Depression TomCS http://www.christianforums.com/t7417954/ http://www.christianforums.com/t7417814/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 20:15:05 GMT I have just started to see a therapist. Her name is Carol. I saw her last thursday for a chat. Im so glad she is a Christian which does help. Thanks to all who have prayed and still are, I certainly need it. Havent even told my friend who im living with yet, that alone my pastor. Found it very... I have just started to see a therapist. Her name is Carol. I saw her last thursday for a chat. Im so glad she is a Christian which does help. Thanks to all who have prayed and still are, I certainly need it.
Havent even told my friend who im living with yet, that alone my pastor. Found it very difficult to talk to anyone, I guess thats depression.
I am only seeing her once a fortnight as I am seeing her privately and am paying.
Is it a failure to see one? As a chrisitian wot do u all think? and has anyone got any advice. Love to u all. Thanks to all for prayers, apreciate continued ones, as I carry on with this, its not going to be easy. Thanks.:hug: ]]> Depression Jo1 http://www.christianforums.com/t7417814/