Insight

Oddly enough, although we may want God to have his will in us, we aren't always willing to let him. And it can come to us in simplest of situations.

Take for example my life.

I am much bugged by hurts that people have caused that I end up playing it over and over. And on one side...at least all of me...wants to be angry. Because I should have the right. Or...It should be my protection. I mean...it really hurts...shouldn't I?

Then there's God who's reminding...

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I spent 7 years trying to get myself out of a miserable depression. Basically, I had just lost my father, been forced to move out alone ( I was very naive and scared at the time), had major body issues (starving and diet pills), and had lost all friends (I was very shy and therefore excluded a lot). And that was just part of it. My self-worth was at an all-time low, partly due to a genetic disease I was born with. And due to some childhood inferiorities, I felt like nothing.

I had...

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hmm...So I'm assuming there was no way to have saved old entries? Unless I missed the announcement (which I could have cause I hardly visited CF but to collect blessings and to stick my pet back in daycare )...it would've been nice if there was some forewarning... Guess considering I would've missed it anyway, there's not much I could say. haha

Well maybe it's like everything else in my life. Clean slate...

I am learning to be happy.
Happy in that I'm trying to...

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