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since i was 13, ive been diagonsed with polycystic ovarian sydrome. it means i have many cysts that grow on my ovaries. in most women who have it means they cannot bear children among other things. so yesterday i have an unbearble pain in my lower abdomen..and utoh..that means cysts are acting up. i know that both of my ovaries have many cysts around them. im always praying that God heals me from this. so im in the hospital and im about to go have an ultrasound on my ovaries. this is the part where...

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when i get into a depression, i lose sight of everything. i make up excuses so i can do bad things that comfort me. im going to come clean so i can have people pray for me. since janurary ive been dealing with a spiritual battle.i would have victories in Christ but then satan with his fiery darts would try to get me. flash forward to this past month. i moved back with my mom. she doesnt drink or smoke infront of me because she knows i battle with these demons. so when she goes to bed..ill admit...

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i had a beautiful moment today. theres this place i go where i park my car and just look out at the ocean. its so soothing. today in my head replayed "God wants you to enjoy this, God made this for you to know of his glory." i thanked God for the many gifts He has given me.

Tonight i went to my bible study. at the church they were having a special worship for the ladies of the church so i went to that instead. well i worshiped so hard. i have never worshiped this intense...

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for a long time ive been struggling to trusting in Jesus. my first thing is well how do i even start? how do i know what jesus wants from me? where do i seek him? i guess i was expecting too much to happen. instead of letting the spirit cone inside i was trying to force it. i would get discouraged if i didnt feel how my friends felt. but jesus has our own path designed for us. he even tells us not to base our paths based on others. one thing ive been really struggling with is forgiving others. i...

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Today was a very rough day for myself. i felt alone, worthless and my life not meaning anything. so i did something to myself and im tottaly not proud of what happened next. my thoughts were bleak. i just wanted to go home. in the thing im not proud of, a voice came to me and said "Your worth more than this." so i left work and spent time with my mother. my mother and i have a very frail relationship. but today she took me to one of the most beautiful places ever. im looking at the sun,...

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