Entries for June 2012

I have my problems socially, that is all I will say. The reason; I don't have to tell you more then that. That is all I have to tell you.

What if I walked up to you and tried to smile at you. What would you think. Would you assume I was OK. Im not. My mind is broken and shattered and has grown back broken and shattered. My mind is dislocated. What would you think if you saw me. Would think my mind was dislocated. Would you have any idea. Probably not. Why would you...

omnicell

Is It OK to Go on≥..

My life is changing. Im working on healing, actually digging in, opening, or looking to open trap doors. Thus the doors are unlocking, or Im looking to try a new tool or find new tools, be committed to finding new tools. Being aware that I don't want new tools, I want the past, I don't want to dig in the present for an unbalanced future. Part of me wants to stay in the past. Stay in denial. A lot of what I work on is exercise work for Preliminary bending....

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Im heading into something of an exploration that my mind was not able to participate within the past. Now, Im allowed by God to look into things, take some chances. The enemy used to be in these realms. Realms of my future. I could not longer vest within these lanterned Vestibules. I was ruptured and could no longer go on... Now after many years, God is leading me. Im scared, Im watching to see if the humiliation is present. Im an honorable man. a decent person. I don't want anymore humiliation...

omnicell

God has allowed an interesting journey that has strengthened and carved and fortified. However, Im heading outward. Im not sure to what?, its a great sign tho. I have been through so much in this life. I doubt anything to big will stop me from my venture...

I have many people that wont look me in the face. They have no respect for me. I am shamed. I guess I am suppose to react. Hmm.

God takes me down a path, a still path of his choosing. I don't worship others...

omnicell

Im looking at new things, expansion. That means letting things pour out. Im getting their.
Im expressing... Im learning...... I get stuck along the way... I get hooked by the wrong bait. I miss read, I am naive in a world of satan. I have to remember this is his realm.. I will be miss understood, I will be judged.

The cost is high, I must respect the danger of the evil in my presence. I must show respect and back away,. Do not fight the evil. That is Gods domain and...

omnicell