Im mad at the world. I really hate them.. How could they let all of this happen. This place is like a garbage bin full of people; the planet. I was not prepared or protected to be in this place.

Letting go and being nothing,

letting go is letting God. When Im nothing I feel free to express everything..

Iv'e been told all kinds of lies by those with no life. Im no longer interested in them.

history is for the mausoleum. Ive seen enough. I want to go swimming at the lake..

Ive lost the first half of my life. I feel foolish. Im confused.

I don't think anyone will ever really accept me. Thats Ok, I will have to take the under people, if the over people don't like me.

I might want to fit in. They would tell me I can take 1000 steps today. That is a lie. I may not be able to take one. They are not with me. They are with themselves. They seek there own glory through lying and manipulating and cheating.

Its hard to trust God when I think I have to go back out to the world machine...