A new stage is beginning for me. Im coming out of one condition into an anxiety based social avoidance condition. This is a step up from my past condition.

I have relied on God for everything. I hope to continue. I don't want to get pulled into the world. In fact, Im hoping to get pulled out of the world, back into safety.

I do not depend on the people around me for love and understanding. I will find none. I depend on God and the computer. That is an interesting combination. At least the computer doesn't question my integrity. Neither does God.
I am learning to forgive everyone all the time. I need to work on this more and more. Its the only thing that keeps me sane.

Im learning to reach out on the internet. In the real world, I do not appeal to anyone. Im not interesting being myself. I have to be what others want me to be, in-order to be impressive. As myself I have little to no value to the world.

I am loved by God
I am loved by God
I am loved by God
I am loved by God