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I forget that Im in the jungle with non caring, non Christian people. They don't have God.

I am alive because of God. I have to learn at this point to wait on God and trust only God. I will not trust the world. I will trust God. And like a child, look up and only trust him.

I am alone. the better I become, less people want to help. They want me down and out. I suppose Im exposing something about them. Im exposing there sin I guess. I really don't care....

omnicell

I live in monkey island. That is the definition of a society. Its a giant zoo with many different cages. I get well from mental sickness, when I turn to God and ask how to survive in one of these cages. Ive decided to be a human being around apes. How am I going to wake up and deal with these apes. Apes are not humans. They have no rules in there own lives and no rules when dealing with mine. I have to trust God and learn how to respond.

God takes me to different places...

omnicell

I am on my knees, my face to the ground all day long. I am praying to Jesus. I was homeless in the park many years ago. I was suffering from Dissociative disorder and long term server PTSD problems. These are problems that will not be going away. My mind has been permanently altered.

Dissociative disorder comes from being raped and tortured long term. And many other horrors...

After talking to many trees in that Park, I decided to I talk to God. He had one...

omnicell

Im looking to trust God during the down times, the lonely times. Possibly asking him for help by bringing me helpers in this life. I have had very little until a few years ago.

Ive actually had many people help me out of kindness. I have no idea how to repay them.

Im a very lucky person. My mind was hurt.. I was never the same.

The people of the past tried to destroy my mind. They were successful. Im not sure what the gaol is. Why try...

omnicell

Seems God is the only place for me to turn. No one else cares.. they only care about themselves. I don't get it. I will have to trust God that he can bring me to the right people. Im around all the wrong people; as usual. Im judged to death on every subject and area. I don't get it. why am I going through all of this. I will have to ask God. I think it has something to do with God. With building a stronger relationship! I can come up with nothing more then that.

Im...

omnicell