Emma1975

Oh, not again!!

ROM 8:15-19

15 I don't understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I can't. I do what I don't want to - what I hate.16 I know perfectly well that what I am doing is wrong, and my bad conscience proves that I agree with these laws I am breaking.17 But I can't help myself, because I am no longer doing it. It is sin inside me that is stronger than I am that makes me do these evil things.
18 I know I am rotten through and...

Emma1975

Right so, there's no point beating myself up over my transgression. What's done is done. i felt very strongly at the time that it was not what I wanted to do, and that I shouldn't, and afterwards it has been abundantly clear that those strong feelings of 'don't do this' were there for good reason, which I already knew of course. But mistakes are valuable learning experiences. Partly I wanted to see if it would wash all this away, if it would put me firmly back in to a life I recognise and am comfortable...

Emma1975

First major test. First major failure. The spirit is willing but not willing enough it would seem. I knew I would fail there. I should have avoided the situation better. But also I wanted to feel something normal, something of myself. And of course now I wish I hadn't bothered, I don't feel a bit good about it. And it's opened up a can of worms. It's often been a rather guilt laden affair for me, even before. I just feel flat, I've let myself fall, it seemed inevitable. Probably it didn't have to...

Emma1975

I'm probably overthinking this whole thing.

Emma1975

Various books and chapters have been suggested to me, as I am reading the New Testament for the first time - being brought up and educated Catholic I have of course heard much of it in school and at Mass, but it never really occurred to me to listen - I have an online Bible study of John which i am following, and someone kindly suggested reading Proverbs, a chapter a night. However, I found myself reading Romans for no particular reason. Having never read The Bible before I can't go to particular...

Emma1975