Spread Your Wings

God is telling me to write City of Angels more. He's giving me ideas after months of struggling with Evelyn's story.

It's in His hands now.

chaoticfirefly

Thank you God, for everything.

I made it through Christmas dinner without wanting to throw up, and all I did was pray really hard, silently, through dinner for my thoughts to stay silent.

And it worked. I didn't think about the calories, about how I'll gain weight...I didn't have a panic attack.

As for the 'haunting', I'm still very worried but I was given great advice by everyone at the Christian advice forums, and I'll rely on Jesus and God more and more,...

chaoticfirefly

Merry Christmas everyone!

I owe to God for my happiness and my recovery. It's the best gift ever.

chaoticfirefly

I cut myself on Sunday, I hadn't done that for a few weeks. It's been a long time since I purged, which I guess is a good thing. I feel guilty for it, but I'm trying, I really am. I just...ache, I guess. Everywhere, in my heart, my bones...I finally managed to go to school last week, after skipping an entire week.

I can't even get myself to go to that non-Denominational church because of panic attacks, they're getting so bad again and I'm beginning to hate this.

It's just...

chaoticfirefly

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