Ive been struggling with the "WHY ME" questions . Why am I fat , Why did i wreck my car , Why did all my money diplete...I mean the questions go on and on .. I then think could I have done things differently and maybe have changed the events? And yes i most definatly could of but then I wouldent be who i am today without those questions. I quess what i am saying is cherish those mistakes in life or the " Why Me " moments because they yeild to learning and sometimes blessings...
Do you ever feel just so lost in a fog ? I do i sometimes think " How or why would he forgive me " . I feel like ive lost my shot with him , and this scares me . I feel bad telling other people my past im affraid im going to scare them away . I dont like it or dont wanna be judged i dunno sometimes i feel alone in this fog ...
I recently have been attending a new church . At first i felt like i was a traitor to my old church . i talked to my grandmother about it and she was just overjoyed i started going again. At this new church i feel so uplifted and alive . I feel the spirt in me at worship and the sermons speak to me ..I feel renwed every sunday .. I jsut wish it was a everyday thing lol thats why i listen to K love in the am so i start my day off peaceful