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I read this bible verse today and it cut right down to the core of me... in a way that I haven't felt in a very long time... it's very comforting and I feel so close to God, like He's using this to reach me in a big way:

7 You were running a good race. Who cut in on you and kept you from obeying the truth? 8 That kind of persuasion does not come from the one who calls you. 9 “A little yeast works through the whole batch of dough.” 10 I am confident in the Lord that you will...

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From this past abuse... I'm taking it day by day to heal. I'm a good deal stronger, healthier, more at peace now than I was a year ago. So I know that being patient and taking the time to just let God sift through everything and purify me is truly worth it and that progress is being achieved in my life. It's so hard sometimes because I just want to get on with it already... but God's timing is so different than my own. I know that I want my energy and happiness back, but God is not through shaping...

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I just watched The Grace Card. Wonderful movie... it moved me to tears, I was bawling by the end of it. As I sit here with my flimsy, metal head massager... my feet placed in my plush, cushioned vibrating foot massager... a vibrating massage pillow on my back... the gentle, soothing sounds of water trickling down coming from my spa sound system... I remember again why I must take it easy and spend so much time now trying to relax. My nervous system has been through the RINGER. 3 1/2 years of...

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I'm on the road to recovery, so as I said before, I need to be mindful of the company that I keep... even more so than I would be normally. I was gaslighted for so long... that right now, I just need to focus on reestablishing truth, reestablishing what I believe (or rather reestablishing why I know what I believe), regaining my focus. I used to be a deep thinker, analyzer, discusser, debater... but I just don't always have the focus I need to do so anymore... not yet at least. It's been...

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Ugh. I should be in the bed right now. But I feel like I've reached a "breaking point" where I'm breaking out of a bondage that I've been in for the past few years. I'm back... it's no longer simply me existing, but I feel like me again; I may still be very tired much of the time, but my energy is starting to come back strong and as a result I feel like me again. I'm trying to make sure I continue forward in this healing and growth. What has helped me to get here?

Well,...

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