Left and right people are comin’ after me and judging me. Their guilty verdict (I’m not even sure what the charge is) is based on what evidence? They just ramble on, spewing forth garbage that I don’t even read before reporting it for harassment. One I did read because whoever the person was had the decency to Private Message me and even signed her name to it. She wasn’t mean but it was clear she only knew one side of the exaggerated story. Hearsay is all they have -- hearsay from just one party involved. Kathy tells people her exaggerated “truth” and she’s believed beyond a shadow of a doubt. “What an angel, she couldn’t possibly be lying or exaggerating or blowing this out of proportion. Obviously she tried to remedy the situation but he must have wanted nothing to do with that. He must be a jerk if she says so.”

Then, from four or five people, the harassment comes directly to me:

“Well, I heard from someone you’re creepy scum so I guess that must be true. Yada yada yada. Etc, etc, et-freakin’-cetera.”

Is that any way to go into a court of law to judge a person’s innocence or their guilt? Does a juror hear one side, pre-determine guilt, and then shut down because the other side’s argument simply does not matter? Is that any way to come to the proper conclusion regarding something they have absolutely NOTHING to do with? Well, that’s what’s happened with me in the past few days. And it’s not right.

Through it all I have been the bigger person. I haven’t gotten mad, I haven’t harassed back, I haven’t had mean thoughts as Kathy and some of these people have had. I have been the bigger person since this all began Saturday afternoon. It’s been five very hurtful days. It’s been five days of being crucified. It’s been five days of completely irrational behavior. But I have not stooped down to any of their levels. I shouldn’t even be saying “their” as this should be a PRIVATE matter . . . but, for whatever insane reasoning, it’s been decided that Zoooma must be publicly crucified. If anything on the planet lacks class, that sure does. What makes all this so much worse – Kathy could have spoken to me and this could have been fixed. Had she taken any time at all to do that, she wouldn’t have to be hiding under a different name here on Christian Forums. This could all have been fixed. But she did not even try.

What’s been happening hasn’t been easy and I am being quite vague for any unknowing reader, but I just don’t feel like laying out the whole thing right here, right now. I’ve done nothing wrong yet I’ve been told I’m scum, pathetic and a stalker. Those words being used are insanity with no basis to them whatsoever. If people would care to know the unexaggerated truth, they’d see those words just do not fit into this situation.

“Man up,” one of the harassers told me. As if I should bottle up the pain, dust myself off, and forget about this wonderful woman who made me a daily part of her life. When you’ve spent countless hundreds of hours texting and talking and enjoying each other, how do you just pretend someone no longer exists? And how do you hurt them so badly without trying to fix something that’s being thought of as a problem? That’s not Christ-like behavior. That’s behavior exactly the opposite of someone who claims to have Christ in her heart and soul. We all have to fight off influence from Satan. I guess some of us just give in to the influence, maybe even bask in it for their own selfish reasons, and don’t even care about the consequences.

It’s all just so sad. Strong men hurt, too. When a friend, for no legitimate reason, kicks another in the face and then when he’s down kicks him repeatedly in the ribs and just about everywhere her foot can reach, and then douses him with gasoline and sets him on fire, that hurts . . . a lot.

It would be different if I deserved it.
If I did something horrible – fine.
But I did not.