As the fire combines with the glory and flows into the mercy . i must remember in moments of judgment .. To judge with mercy . This is so awesome . i almost forgot how awesome this is . I must remember . As my eyes blur from the surges of heavenly power .. And my consciousness drifts to the left then to the right as i sit still .. That i cannot do it .. i cannot do it .. i am not enough .. and i surrender .

Liquid fire .. Floating through the synapse .. Some consciousness trying to manipulate .. But i surrender .. And God takes care of it . . . as the consciousness becomes as blackened ash and i become as the sun with increasing brightness . This is what i had been missing . And i know there is so much more . And every moment ... i will savour .delight in the Lord also, and He will fulfill the desires of your heart .. And this becomes so much more awesome when my desires are blackened ash .. And His desires that He placed in my heart .. Are what i really truly want .. And i see many consciousnesses ... deplete to ashes .. But His mercy sustains me .. And His glory encourages me .. And His judgment .. It spurs me on . And i see there was no need to fear picking up that sword .. Because i have been changed now .. And that which became as ash .. I do not rely on .. So it doesn’t kill me to be here . Praise is to Him and Love is Him for the praise of His glory .

A nostril burns a little .. My guts ache a little .. But so much awesome glory .. I seek this .. To be every day . Just like the other things i seek and desired to be every day .. I trust you God .. I know you will bring this about also and greater in consistency . And thank you and you are so awesome halleluyah .