I got a little advice from someone today. I was told to read the book of job and someone said it related to me in my time of need. So I read it and in some ways it does relate to me. The story of Job was about him loosing alot of the stuff he had but even though he lost all the stuff he loved he still put his trust in the Lord. So I know I got to look at myself and relate that to my situation. Maybe the Lord is making me go through alot of the stuff I am going through so I learn to trust him more and know that everything will turn out ok and in the end I will be blessed and learn to appreciate the things I have alot more then I already do. Its a very hard lesson but I am learning somethings I am taking baby steps day in and day out.