Dear Jesus,

As Easter came to a close I was filled with joy but then some sorrow. Lord I was so excited to celebrate everything and just be filled so much as I was! I could not stop smiling in church on that glorious day! But then, then I felt a little sad as it was all over. Then I thought, "No, no it is not all over because I can remember and celebrate what You did for me all of the time."

Lord I feel a new season is upon me right now. I actually do not feel it, I know it. Lord, Your word says there is a time for everything in Ecclesiastes. I truly think that new changes are coming and already taking place. Ones I am starting to see and ones I can not see yet.

Lord You are helping me take big steps. I pray You help me leave the former things, events, self behind. Help me die to self to be what it is YOU want me to be. Help me to want what YOU want me to desire. I crave to be more like You every single day.

Father forgive me when I am prideful or selfish. When I am judgmental or all of the things I can be at times that are not pleasing to You. Lord I pray You help me to be more pure in thought and deed. I pray You help me to not look back as often and press forward toward the goal as Your word says in Philippians.

I am afraid sometimes because I do not know my future. Because I am taking steps I have not taken before. I pray You help me come out of my shell and to serve You. To stop hiding behind depression at times or isolation as my crutch. To say "No, Philippians 4:13 I CAN do this."

And Lord I pray You bring me in person fellowship or lead me to it. I thank You so very much for the church I attend and my precious Great Aunt Helen. I pray You heal her perfectly according to Your plan and bless our relationship.

Oh Lord how I love Your statutes and it was good for me to go through hard times, just as Psalms 119:71. I see You working in me I can even think of books or verses. I thank You for this.

And Lord I just thank You for all I am, flaws and all because it is what makes me ME. And I thank You for the fiery trials and I pray with all of my heart You use them for Your glory and Your glory alone, not my own gratification.

Thank You Precious Jesus, for dying for our sins. For the blood on the cross. For new beginnings and fresh starts.

This season is upon me and I fear at times but then I remember it is of the enemy, this fear. I then turn to You and find great peace, comfort and joy.

You know what is best for me. Please help me be more obedient and not cry, kick, or scream when life does not go MY way. lol

I love You with every beat of my heart Lord God, Oh how I love You.

In Jesus Name
Amen


I love You Jesus.