JanuaryMoon

why I journal...
I journal to reflect upon my thoughts and feelings in order to sort out the wise from the foolish...to bring healing to my heart and mind.
I don't think I need to journal anymore. There are times when my brain gets cluttered but no longer leads my thoughts in the wrong direction. I have come to see most of the blame I have put on myself for things is misplaced and not deserved.
My purpose for this blog was to be to record signs and wonders from above. Not...

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I have been trying to find out what is wrong with me...I get these spells, they are bad...I have been having them for decades...alot of the symptoms are the same as panic and/or anxiety...I also get a sour stomach and and I have alot of physical pain from being tensed up all the time and extreme exhaustion...
everything starts with a thought, I learned this in my previous support group for anxiety.
I hate myself....
I hate myself for all the stupid mistakes I have made and for...

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mind clutter.....journaling it out always helped. When I was growing up we did not talk about things. I in particular was forbadden to say anything about anything at anytime...lol. it's good I can laugh at those things now, seems so not so long ago it always made me cry or at least want to. Oct. 31 is my sister's bd, we have never had a relationship ...she was never a sister and was my kids who told me about her and their dad, things like that cut like a knife. We had no communication for over...

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I still have healing to do, I just was meditating and it came to me that though my brain(mind) has healed and I no longer have false truths ruling me and no more what if's taking me over---the other day a swarm of cops decended in my yard in chase of a guy who was wanted for aggravated asult, .....I'd just been outside minutes before....the whole thing terrified me at first and the what if's started---what if he had come when I was outside and shoved me back inside and held me hostage!!!!!!!!! what...

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was going to write about weird so called coincidences/happenstances...such as, today I was at the cabin and said to my son-in-law that peaches were my fav fruit...when I got home later I turned on my fav radio station and heard this song I'd not heard before..."I'm going to the country and eat a bunch of peaches"
things like that happen to me all the time...once I saw a vision of the US lland formation change and years later they had people who saw the same on this show...can't...

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