dark struggle

It has been a couple of days and Im ready to blog it now. This one was the hardest for me to get over and Im still working on it.
Thursday evening while driving to my parents house to pick up my DD, I passed my brother walking the kids home from the park (his twins and my DD). They were facing traffic, there was a truck comming at them and a car behind me, so I just waved at my brother, my DD was in the ditch beside him until he pointed me out then she ran around him into the road and almost...

dark struggle

Good morning Jesus,
this ones for you
Its me again but whats new
my heart is heavy and my soul sighs
my tears wont stop my heart it cries

Yes its me again Jesus
I need you again
the pain is so great Im worn thin
my thoughts they hurt oh they sting
Jesus you are my Lord and King

Jesus help me to stand
to go on another day
in hopes to help someone
whom may be feeling the very same way
ease their hearts...

dark struggle

These last few months have been really rough, what started out as joy for a family has been less than that.
My brother was expeting twins and they should have been born around the 28 of this month but she kept going into labor so they flew her to Missoula to stop it, it lasted a while (month) and then they just couldn't. They were born April 5th. I would take my brother up there every weekend to see them and then come home. Well the little girl had to have a blood transfusion and taken into...

dark struggle

Today Im feeling rather....well I guess low. I feel like one of my good friends is sort of slipping between my fingers. We were pretty close and prayed with eachother and met once a week to pray together over eachother and other issues and well now that they took away our prayer meetings, we hardly ever talk or see on another and I don't know it just feels like a huge gap between us not just time but a hole.
I seen "them" at the bon fire we had Sat night and "they" brought...

dark struggle

Where even to start I don't know, its been a few days since my last blog....well probably even long I don't remember.
All I really know is that Im tired, Im tired of this not sleeping crap agian, Im tired of my DD crying at bed time for 2 hours (if Im lucky) and getting up 12 billion times, and most of all Im pretty tired of me.
I hate feeling afraid, I used to be care free and I would do almost anything, then its like one day I woke up afraid, what day that was I don't know, can't...

dark struggle