Another meeting
Posted 26th October 2010 at 09:44 AM by dark struggle
Friday we had a meeting at the church, the pastor called a private meeting for voting members only. There were a few of us who went and recorded what was said incase the meeting wasn't being recorded or incase they paused the recording at certian times to bleep out what they didn't want recorded.
The meeting started at about 6:30 and by the time 9:45 rolled around I had to leave, they were still going. At that point, I had no idea what was truth what wasn't truth, where I stood I didn't know up from down. I was so confused and upset and torn. I would rather eat a million bullets than work one day for the kingdom of the enemy.
He started off saying that our original meeting of October 6th was rediculouse out of line, out right funny and was nothing but a bunch of false accusations. This is the meeting that district was at. I just have to ask myself, doesn't the fact that disctict is in volved ring volumes as to the importance of what is going on? District even said that they have never had to deal with this situation before .... shouldn't that ring volumes to the people that these are not false accusations and that maybe perhaps there is something BIG going on???? Are they really that blind .... clueless?
He (the pastor) said that if we do not have any witnesses to back us then we are bearing false witness, well it is sort of hard to have a witness when you are totally and completly caught off gaurd, told you are being suspended and asked to step into this room where they bullied you, intimidated you, yelled at you for about 15 minutes. I had no witnesses but as sure as I am a live today it happened just like that. They told me that "when I RETURN (from where if I am not kicked out) I may take my place at the front of the church". Well I suffer from PTSD and OCD ect. I can not just go to the front of the church and sit there, I left the church went to my parents house and cried for hours. I was devestated. I was gone 10 months when I finally got enough courage to ask if I could come back, if they thought I had been punished long enough for something I didn't do .... I got an email in return that said that I willingfully left, that they didn't kick me out, and that the sound room was no longer open to me and that I had to proove myself. When I got back my membership box that I had since I was 18 was gone
. That is the only "witness" that I have, If I wasn't kicked out then where did my box go? Not only that, on the ballet of people who have been "non problem" members for a year or long was on that list, but my name wasn't there, why if I willingfully left as they claim and I have been a member there for 10years missing very little church then why is my name not on the list? Is it because they revoked my membership .... No because I am allowed to vote, so is it because I was a problem member and so they had to suspend me .... hmmmm the letter said I did nothing wrong so what is it? Why am I not there,I would dare say that that is another "witness" if you will that they did infact suspend me from church for 10 month.
Anyways, He said that he and the board had been attacked by false accustaions ripped up one side and down the other, and then he said that they just took it, stood up for us and then he added, and don't you think for one minute that your friends haven't called me "stabbing" you in the back, and the board and I stood up against them on your behalf, we never went public and hashed any of you but some of you went on email, got on the phone and called eachother, and even did it in meetings here at the church. Well interesting thing about the email comment, some of our face book accounts were hacked into a few days prior to this meeting. How would he know about our email conversations, and our secret meeting if someone didn't hack our accounts?
I thought it very low of him to drag our friends into it when they weren't even their to defend themselvs, I thought it very low for him to divide an already divided church. He so far has called us enemys all the way to deamons. I just am waiting on the Lord now for His justice and His peace and His love. 6 people prior to this meeting (whom have attended church regularly and were voting members got a letter revoking their membership and was told they were never again allowed to step foot in the church again, then at the very bottom of this letter was a side note that read if you repend and get beg then you will be forgivin and will be allowed back in (that is not word for word by the way). In the meeting, "K" stood and said that there were false accusations going around about a letter being sent, she said all the letter was was a standard letter cleaning out the old info so that they don't have people from 10+ years ago comming in out of no where to vote. I was sickened. What is happening to our church? Why all the coverup? Why all the lies and secrets? I don't know, but my heart breaks .... I am saddened by all of this, and district is beside themselves.
The meeting started at about 6:30 and by the time 9:45 rolled around I had to leave, they were still going. At that point, I had no idea what was truth what wasn't truth, where I stood I didn't know up from down. I was so confused and upset and torn. I would rather eat a million bullets than work one day for the kingdom of the enemy.
He started off saying that our original meeting of October 6th was rediculouse out of line, out right funny and was nothing but a bunch of false accusations. This is the meeting that district was at. I just have to ask myself, doesn't the fact that disctict is in volved ring volumes as to the importance of what is going on? District even said that they have never had to deal with this situation before .... shouldn't that ring volumes to the people that these are not false accusations and that maybe perhaps there is something BIG going on???? Are they really that blind .... clueless?
He (the pastor) said that if we do not have any witnesses to back us then we are bearing false witness, well it is sort of hard to have a witness when you are totally and completly caught off gaurd, told you are being suspended and asked to step into this room where they bullied you, intimidated you, yelled at you for about 15 minutes. I had no witnesses but as sure as I am a live today it happened just like that. They told me that "when I RETURN (from where if I am not kicked out) I may take my place at the front of the church". Well I suffer from PTSD and OCD ect. I can not just go to the front of the church and sit there, I left the church went to my parents house and cried for hours. I was devestated. I was gone 10 months when I finally got enough courage to ask if I could come back, if they thought I had been punished long enough for something I didn't do .... I got an email in return that said that I willingfully left, that they didn't kick me out, and that the sound room was no longer open to me and that I had to proove myself. When I got back my membership box that I had since I was 18 was gone
. That is the only "witness" that I have, If I wasn't kicked out then where did my box go? Not only that, on the ballet of people who have been "non problem" members for a year or long was on that list, but my name wasn't there, why if I willingfully left as they claim and I have been a member there for 10years missing very little church then why is my name not on the list? Is it because they revoked my membership .... No because I am allowed to vote, so is it because I was a problem member and so they had to suspend me .... hmmmm the letter said I did nothing wrong so what is it? Why am I not there,I would dare say that that is another "witness" if you will that they did infact suspend me from church for 10 month. Anyways, He said that he and the board had been attacked by false accustaions ripped up one side and down the other, and then he said that they just took it, stood up for us and then he added, and don't you think for one minute that your friends haven't called me "stabbing" you in the back, and the board and I stood up against them on your behalf, we never went public and hashed any of you but some of you went on email, got on the phone and called eachother, and even did it in meetings here at the church. Well interesting thing about the email comment, some of our face book accounts were hacked into a few days prior to this meeting. How would he know about our email conversations, and our secret meeting if someone didn't hack our accounts?
I thought it very low of him to drag our friends into it when they weren't even their to defend themselvs, I thought it very low for him to divide an already divided church. He so far has called us enemys all the way to deamons. I just am waiting on the Lord now for His justice and His peace and His love. 6 people prior to this meeting (whom have attended church regularly and were voting members got a letter revoking their membership and was told they were never again allowed to step foot in the church again, then at the very bottom of this letter was a side note that read if you repend and get beg then you will be forgivin and will be allowed back in (that is not word for word by the way). In the meeting, "K" stood and said that there were false accusations going around about a letter being sent, she said all the letter was was a standard letter cleaning out the old info so that they don't have people from 10+ years ago comming in out of no where to vote. I was sickened. What is happening to our church? Why all the coverup? Why all the lies and secrets? I don't know, but my heart breaks .... I am saddened by all of this, and district is beside themselves.
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