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Friday we had a meeting at the church, the pastor called a private meeting for voting members only. There were a few of us who went and recorded what was said incase the meeting wasn't being recorded or incase they paused the recording at certian times to bleep out what they didn't want recorded.
The meeting started at about 6:30 and by the time 9:45 rolled around I had to leave, they were still going. At that point, I had no idea what was truth what wasn't truth, where I stood I didn't...

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Something is happening and I am scared. Yesterday there were three people who are attending our meetings ( to get a new pastor and board) who got letters stating that they were to never step foot in our church again, their membership is being revoked ect. Then there are three others in our group who also attend church that the pastor or member of the board called and want the to have a "private" meeting with them on Friday.
I do not know where I stand, so to be safe I am leaving...

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The date for the second meeting is set for this Friday. A couple of us have been keeping in touch through face book, we have been talking back and forth through private messaging.
One lady pmed me and told me the time and day of our next meeting and then made a comment about a few things that I had responded back to her on. I do not believe that I was out of line or said anything inappropriate or unfair, I simply told her how I understood things. I got a call from her today at noon (it...

dark struggle

So it has been four long days since havening to make a stand for the Lord, and for all of those who has been wronged by the pastor and his board.
Well, I got a call Friday asking me to meet again, and speak again as the district was deeply disturbed by the pastor and the board. I was told that they just sat there and smiled or silently laughed at the stories being told. I am in complete shock. My heart hurts for those people, but even more so for the pastor and the board. How can you be...

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Last Wednesday I was informed that the church was having a meeting with the district of AOG. I was informed that I was to speak about the things that had happened. I do not do well with being the center of attention, and I do not do well with speaking in front of people, but it had to be done.
I walked in the church last night after fighting panic attacks all day and was totally floored at the amount of people that were there, my heart started pounding and I started to sweat all over...

dark struggle