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Yesterday, I was in a really good mood and was actually having a good day for the first time in I don't know how long. I gathered up my bible and things and headed into the church so that I could get my offering made out and start my Bible project.
As I was doing that Jerry stepped in and told me that I could no longer do the sound, I was devestated, I had been doing it for 15 years, only missed one Sunday and was faithful to my duty. It was perfect because it was in the back where it was...

dark struggle

last night when I got home I put the DD in the house and the dog out. I just had to do something I had nothingto do at work all day and it drove me nuts and house work has been non stop for the last couple days. Well to my advantage it snowed so I got the shovel and started clearing the stairs and the walk way when hubby pulls in and takes away the shovel as if Im not shoveling right or Im to fragile to do it. I don't know, all I know is that I was sort of angry about it.
Well then comes...

dark struggle

Well guess Ill post to my blog tonight.
It seems as though Im the only one on tonight, things here in cyber world and in the real world are well boring and lonly. Im here at my brother in laws watching my husband and his brother play the wii. I hate just sitting, infact was never good at it so I thought I would pop on and see if there was anyone out there to talk to.
I don't feel very well and have been running around all day. I am tired and just want to go home. Im in the winey...

dark struggle

Yesterday I finally felt pretty. I had new make up, I went and bought a sectret valentines nighty for my husband and was feeling pretty good.
When I arrived at church the guy there started telling me how pale I looked and asked if I was felling ok, asked if I had been sick or if I had cought that flue. He then went on saying how I needed viteman this and viteman that and more sun shine and on and on and on. I have always been very fair skinned, infact when I have a pic taken they usually...

dark struggle

Well, It has been a long agonizing battle but for the first time ever there seems to be a little sunshine poking through the thick clouds.
I had 2 Dr. appointments one yesterday and she didn't really know how to help me so she schedualed one for today with someone else. I was nervouse and a little scared because I have been to so many Dr.s and to no avail, they never seem to listen and Im afraid of people anyways but I nothing to loose, after all I just didn't want to live this way any longer....

dark struggle