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So I get up one day and look in the mirror and my reflection wasn't me, the stress of school and the past that I had hid so far down, all I thought about was dying, but I remember when my sister attemped she was locked up for a week or so.
I went to school as always only this day would be differant, I was in health and they were showing a video on anarexia and blemia and then how they eventually die, I thanked God after all I had just thought this hours ago how to comit suicide and know...

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Well that all past and I Brad was home soon her going away to prison just sort of sank away and things were starting back to normal other than my brother was the devil.
Dad worked long hours he got up at 4am to leave for work and so we had to get our selvs up and get us ready for school and Brad ready I was in the 6th grade now. Brad would fight us and argue and many times caused us to be late for the bus so we would have to piggy back ride him part of the way to school because he was only...

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My step mom became pregnant (second lost the first) and gave birth in 1990 to my brother. Mean while my bio mom was sent to prison for hireing a hit man to kill my step dad. I remember this day because I was home at grandmas sick at grandmas house because my step mom and dad worked. I was lying on the floor watching the morning new because thats what grandma always watched before price is right. She was in the kitchen making breakfast when I say my mom in handcuffs infront of a judge in a court...

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From what I remember when I was younger around 3 I was ok. It was just my dad and me and my two sisters.
Dad was fun then and took us fishing and camping and we would spend weekends together. During the week he worked so we would get up at 4am everymorning and he would take all three of us up in his arms and cary us all out to his truck and head us over to grandmas house. She was our care taker/babysitter. From there dad and grandpa would leave for work together because they worked...

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went back to the doctor and she perscribed another medication to help stop my "back flashes" and also help me to go and stay asleep.
I get so nervouse when I go out I hate it, she seems nice and doesn't make me do anything I don't want but she said that I have to see her every two weeks for a while. Im still coping with Sundays thing, I feel so abandoned and alone and hurt and well I guess its nothing new so I don't know why it bothers me so bad.
Im so confused they...

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