dark struggle

Ok, so my Saturday was alright, I took my brothers gf down to see the twins and we had tons of fun even though I got us lost 3 or 4 times. We sort of looked at it like an adventure, and then we aventually made it safe and sound to our destination. We talked and I had the opertunity to talk to her about Jesus (Shes wicken). Found out she never even heard his name until highschool so it was a perfect chance. She just listened and asked questions and all was well. I took her shopping before we left...

dark struggle

Sometimes I feel as though people don't want to talk to me, I post and no one will post for hours, there will be peoples names at the top but they never post anything and then leave.
What is wrong with me? It gets so discouraging sometimes. There are just days and moments when I just want to chat, and that doesn't seem to matter, I often feel alone, I work all day in an office by myself, and the only conversations that I might have is if the phone rings for and its a customer....and the conversation...

dark struggle

I feel that Im caught in the middle between my sep mom and my dad and my brother, and then his girlfriend or ex for that matter.
By brother has twins that are premature, they weighed 2 pounds, and when they get out of the hospital, they have to live with my parents whom are supposedly trying to control everything he does, and his ex has been caught cheating on him for the first 3 months they were together so he doesn't want to be with her and my mom and dad are flipping out on him pretty...

dark struggle

Sometimes life is a circle
going around and around
you start to get it together
just in time for it to fall apart

hope and faith hold us up
in the valley of despare
Im not Jesus nor am I Job
so give me rest in this storm

I plead for you Jesus
stand by my side
hold my hand as I fall
you are my srength alone

another trial to tread through
and a light I know is there
only darkness I see until...

dark struggle

Im really irrotated at CF right now, my blog is a sacred thing to me and to have it all erased from clear back to march 25 erased alot of things and that just irrotates me.
So now Im going to try and get this blog all caught up today, of course there is going to be alot of stuff missing but what can ya do? It is what it is.
I have gone through rough patches, and loosing CF for as long as we did was hard. I paid my mom to clean my house so it would be nice and clean, I paid her...

dark struggle