so the working on Sunday thing was a bad decision. I don't go in for legalism over it but I know now that I miss church real bad.
so now I need to find another job somehow.
sigh!

but on the up side, me and God have been having some interesting discussions/wrestlings over things lately. Have come to the conclusion that "wrestling with God" is probably actually me wrestling with me to get myself into line with God

but man, do I need to get some stuff sorted with my Father in Heaven!

we can only take to heaven what we have with God and I'm not ok with how I am with God at the moment, not ok.

God is faithful I have no worries about that but the surrender in my life isn't what it was and I miss that peace and joy. It costs though. A lot.

God please help me surrender to your will and cleanse my heart and life somehow. Even as I ask that God I know it comes with a price please bring me to that place where you mean more to me, in Jesus Name, amen.