So i am extreamly bad at staying on track with certian websites. i have soo many passwords and usernames now its hard to remember but i rememberd my old CF username. but im going to stay on with this username. A lil about me:

Name-CJ(Chris)
Age-20
Gender-Male
Occupation-Military
Hobbies-Paintball, Vol. Firefighter
Intrests-Cuddleing with loved ones, talkin to old friends, loveing life, family vacations
Reasons to like me-I dont have any.


Now on with myself:

Im not too sure what i posted before as djtru2u, but i do know this. I am still single and looking for the right one. i am not a perfect christian, due to the fact that i swear everytime i get mad, that i have "defaced" my body with a tattoo, that i have had premarrital sex, and that i dont devote myself day in and day out to atleast praying to god. I have walked away soo many times and just 4 weeks ago i went back to church. it was a church i was invited to and i enjoied going to. that sunday i went i broke into a million and one pieces. thoughts of my fallen father came to mind and thoughts of my friends and family back home in california came to mind also. i never really realized how god can hit someone soo hard that it hurts to even just sit in one place. i felt like God smaked me upside the head and told me that he truely loved me for everything. over everything that i have done, i felt loved for every screwup and misshap that i have caused. never really felt that way before. i still go to church when i can, cause it all depends on my work schedual and i am not just making excuses. I am a full time worker and that doesnt mean 40 hours a week. it means i work 24/7/52/1 (24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 52 weeks a year, all year) so if i work nights i cant go and be with the youth at the church wensdays, and if i work on the Sundays i cant go to church then either. or if im out of gas and money im just saying home. i guess my only reall prayer for me is guidence on how i keep track of my money and better spending habbits. Till next time though, Peace.