lifewanderer

I wake up every night drenched in terror. My heart's racing and my head's pounding. I can't breathe.

The Christmas lights are starting. It hurts so much when the Christmas lights go up. Then I'm alone in the dark again with no one on the earth caring if I existed.

I guess forgiveness doesn't stop the nightmares. It doesn't stop the hurt. Or the sadness. It doesn't stop the memories, huh?

Is there a way God can stop the pain inside? Can God stop the hurt...

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Sometimes I feel like sharing. And because I can. My entire life I couldn't.

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At 4:45 a.m. I woke up. God showed me a vision of Makayla and said, "Makayla can't speak. I gave you the gift of speech and look what you do with it." I am so sorry. I know what to do.

Then God showed me this in the bible:

"No one lights a lamp and hides it in a jar or puts it under a bed. Instead, he puts it on a stand, so that those who come in can see the light. For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed, and nothing concealed that...

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I'm really trying to get this right. I keep making movies to help me pray. They're on my website: Lifewanderer .....The Effects of Abuse - Lifewanderer

I'm trying to stay focused on the postive. I'm really trying.

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