I found my old blog from 2 Summers ago.

http://www.christianforums.com/t5886525/

I guess I'll just start new here.

I'm been having a lot of trouble sorting through my thoughts lately. Everything just seems to be going a mile a minute in my mind, and it's very hard to try to sit and pray, or even write a blog entry. I am so distracted with the birth coming up and preparing for the adoption and having problems with Adam that I'm finding it difficult to focus solely on God. Lord, please help me with that. Help me to give everything up to you. I know you are in control of everything, but I tend to forget so often. Let everything around me be a constant reminder that you are holy and you are everything, and everything you do is for good.

I went to my local church today for the first time since Easter, I believe. I have been to my church back "home" where my parents live a couple of times when visiting, but I was having trouble making myself get up and go to Central Community Church. I love the people who attend CCC, and the small, tight atmosphere. But even though most people knew I was expecting, I was shy about going by myself and having everyone ask questions. I just didn't want to deal with it. I know that that was wrong.

I actually think I'm going to take a small break from writing this and go to a coffee shop to finish up and relax. It's just nice to get out of the apartment sometimes.