Singing in the Shadow of Your Wings

Don't get it, Lord....
less and less understanding.
I just want You... but so much in the way.. and I can't even cope with the day-to-day, never mind the spiritual.
And yet, it all flows from there... from You..

soon, Lord? please

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how do you turn it off, Lord?
I can't work it out....
help

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Father... I am sorry. And now... now that I have yet again torn my heart out and can't think for the pain.... now I can see what I have done... I don't know whether there is a way out.
I love You... and I have, eventually , obeyed You.
But I can't go on.... I don't have the emotional strength at the moment to do any more.
And everything else it falling to pieces around me. Normally I would be trying to hold it together... but I can't, Lord.
If this is the end... I just...

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Lord... I did what you said.. I know it took me a long time.. and You know how sorry I am for that .
But why the complications? Why there?
I can't be open anymore... knowing that what I write could cause hurt. But not writing it is hurting me... and I honestly don't know what You want of me in this one. Please show me, clearly.
I love You, father... show me how to do Your will..

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Why do I run back here whenever I am hurt.... I don't know if it's right, Lord, to use this as a refuge from 'real life'...
But I need the release of writing... and I need somewhere to talk to You this way...

Lord.. You know what I am.... You know my heart... please help. I can't cope with losing friends this way - or with the pain of being seen as a threat to someone's walk with You. That hurts so, so much.. and I don't know how to deal with it, except to withdraw... from...

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