Again, I can relate. Satan has been working overtime in my life recently. My husband lost his job in January, so financial burdens have been overwhelming. The joy I knew I was supposed to feel seemed to disappear, and I found myself dreading each and every day. 'What's the point?' I would think. 'It's all bad anyway!' I'm still struggling to regain the joy I once had, but the Lord is helping me. A few things that helped me were these:

1. Verbally tell Satan to leave you alone! He can't read your thoughts. If you want him to leave, you must voice it.
2. When he comes to you, turn to the Scriptures. Find comfort in the words of your Father.
3. Pray a lot! Even when you don't have the words to say, go to the Lord and cry on His shoulder.
4. As hard as it may seem, focus on the positive. Don't think of what you don't have. Think and be thankful for all the things you do have.
5. Remember that you're not alone. Even though it is hard to sense the Lord's presence in these dark times, He is there with You just as He promised. He'll help you fight. Lean on Him.

Hope this helps! I'll be praying for you!

I just randomly came across your post when I clicked on the blog page, I think...I noticed the date and hope things have improved in the last six months or so.

And anyway, I just want to say I've had those very same thoughts in my head at some point and guess what? IT'S FASLE!

You are capable and good enough just as you are. And when you truly come to love yourself unconditionally, amazing things will happen. And remember Christ made you to be just simply you.