Just noticed I haven't written in here since May. As of May 27th, 2009 I've made some major changes. Less caffeine, herbs, organic n' stuff. Went to a Naturopathic that did an irodology assesment.

Been making a lot of changes, including more raw foods (veggies stuff with enzymes). You can def see the difference in my skin. Unfortunately its packed on weight, haven't been this weight since 99'. I'm making this next month a focus on getting my waist size down an inch. Really hard, but I think its possible. Putting together a work-out plan now.

And the best things about the food changes (more gluten-free too) is that I'm not as run down/tired and sick as I was before. So I'm just getting back into running. It will be even better if the Lord opens up a position in a job that is closer and less stress.

Discovered new drinks like Kambucha and Yerbe Mate. Wow the clarity is amazing with Kambucha. Of coarse I'll always love my green tea and macha.

Natural lotions and cosmetics, I'm reading a lot and the debts have been stacking. But I'm hoping things will even out eventually, like not buying pop and processed foods. I need more discipline though. And I think a fast (spiritual) and also physical detox may be something in the near future to break some trends in my thought life, a job and health.

Dating I've been taking a break for the most part. Signed up a couple of times for online things and canceled within the day. I'm not ready. In the last 2 weeks I think there's a been a lot more guys asking out and I've treated them as hanging out.

But I'm kind of divided as of late of my friend of 17years. He went on a trip (D.C) this past week to see his girlfriends dad, is proposal impending? What gets me is that a sermon I sent him some months ago (ironically sent to me from the guy thats in Thailand and he's from the same EAST coast state as my friend) and he wrote an essay.....My friend has never done this and he seems to be developing his interest in theology and deeper things at the same level as I have this past year. I wanna cry though, I wonder if I lived near him and if I had the waistline as his fitness model girlfriend does, if he'd ask me out.

So my goal for the waistline within this month isn't because of him, or what a date said to me a year ago, but to get my points up on my PT test with the AF and accomplish the goal I've never accomplished for some years. A core that's strong not only for looks, but health and a better life. I'm tired of the way my middle has been for some years.

Prayer request: My thought life (that's been a struggle this past week for some reason in ways I havent' for a while. Lines that shouldn't be crossed or allowed) On a good note, being away from my regular job I've not had to fight as many depressive worthless thoughts, which makes me know for sure I need a healthier environment where I'm less attacked by co-workers.
--added request is a more cheerful optomistic outlook. Sense of humor.

Health - more energy, better sinuses and to be able to run 3x a week and lift as I need for a better quality of life.

Friends/Fellowship vs the dating life. A focus on friendships n' fellowship, letting dating wait till NOvember so I can concentrate on the job hunt.

Job - The Lord knows all the intricacies but I'm focusing on federal and college staff positions like career advisor or admissions. Very difficult with work and maybe 4hrs when I get home, to workout, cook, clean, shower and be in bed by a descent time. But if nothing else Mon/Tues are my hunt days. So far when I have found something I've spent an entire week with the person I hire getting it to the specifications of the online resume/application system for the job.
Baby steps baby steps.

Praises - the 2 weeks I had with AF and being able to work out almost everyday. My health improving while I continually see others getting worse (amazing to see how much my immune system doesn't care for wheat also). Friendships, like tonight at the luah. They are continuing to grow. My sister is opening up with me a lil, she was closed for more than a year while in a bad reltn. My friend of 17years, the sharpening that we have done with one another in our walks and his starting an evangelism bible study b/c of the sermon I sent. - >giving glory to the Lord tho. Although my debts are mounting, I believe the Lord is guiding me into some better ways and I have faith this will level out as I find more natural ways to clean without products you buy ready made.

This is way long.....if anyone read this, I am AMaaaaaaaazed.