I'm a hypocrite. i KNOW this. NEVERTHELESS, I found his email on the net, and contacted him. Surprisingly he answered me back that day, and called me several times that day also. I finally returned his call. And we talked this afternoon. He's such a jokster. And playful. Hopefully I'll be seeing him around.
Posted 6th November 2008 at 12:55 PM byrita727 Updated 8th November 2008 at 07:09 PM byrita727
I feel in my heart that what I want is a boyfriend. But I know that wont solve what's really bothering me. I want to be loved. But not by myself. And not by God. but it just seems that in the ways that I try to reach out to someone else, it backfires and leaves me with an even greater sense of being alone.
The loneliness I feel, to a great degree, is my own fault. I push people away by my own reclusiveness. But in an odd sense, I also believe that God is allowing me to...