Weapon of Choice ~ JOY ~ ...

Jesus, THANK YOU for this man. I need someone to sound like me NOW. He SOUNDS like me !!! I saddly have a crippled tongue, spiritually, I'm practically mute... I almost only function in written form about You. That's why _I_ love music so much... it speaks for me, often. So, he SOUNDS like me, not in the delivery of the actual message, but in his spirit, in his calling out for reverance. He sounds like he's NOT dissing music, but the regimented, droning, dead-earred 'practice of music-ing,' as well...

Shachah

I pray that the lack of error that I heard in that few minutes was indicative of this man's True spirit in You , Jesus. I'm goin' HUNTIN' !!! I love finding YOU manifest. WOW !!!

I saw this guy on GodTV today, on my new laptop... he is so goooooood !!! You can't fake that. I was more than a little impressed. He speaks scripture like an audio book and he ties the exegesis of Scripture together like he created it into themes himself !He is fresh and exciting to me. He's on again at 10PM...

Shachah

....is so easily marred by the knowing that it has gone missing. I wouldn't know what I was missing if I had never had any. There is utter joy in having EVER KNOWN love... TRULY. It's a rare rare thing to love and be loved in return. There seems to be a LOT that can come against love's bond to mar and scatter it. I guess the enemy of Your Heaven has a fair stock in seeing love thwarted when it rears its beautiful face in his kingdom of deception and appetites. I feel small, out of control and wounded...

Shachah

It seems like for months and months and years, even, I have been living with a shortness of breath. It's the weight of grief over the repeated loss of Teknon that has collapsed my breathing, really. Compounded with the complete lack of understanding of HOW he could be so ugly toward me, and WHY ? It's both a figurative and a literal truth. My spirit has been impaired in his absence.

Spirit, pneuma, also meaning breath and the seat of power, emotion, affection,... has often impacted...

Shachah

originally posted on June 24th in cfBlog1:
WHEW ! Fruitfulness and obligations..... family and seasonal duties.... I always slump off from my Blog with You at this time of year, Jesus. I am so glad that You are right here in me. We never lose track of each other... only of the letters and records of the joys that You grant me through the days going by. Sooooo many things I wanted to get here to record and thank You for since last week. Post-its everywhere with thoughts and blessings and lessons...

Shachah