Weapon of CHOICE ~Joy~ From the Hands of God

....is so easily marred by the knowing that it has gone missing. I wouldn't know what I was missing if I had never had any. There is utter joy in having EVER KNOWN love... TRULY. It's a rare rare thing to love and be loved in return. There seems to be a LOT that can come against love's bond to mar and scatter it. I guess the enemy of Your Heaven has a fair stock in seeing love thwarted when it rears its beautiful face in his kingdom of deception and appetites. I feel small, out of control and wounded...

Shachah

It seems like for months and months and years, even, I have been living with a shortness of breath. It's the weight of grief over the repeated loss of Teknon that has collapsed my breathing, really. Compounded with the complete lack of understanding of HOW he could be so ugly toward me, and WHY ? It's both a figurative and a literal truth. My spirit has been impaired in his absence.

Spirit, pneuma, also meaning breath and the seat of power, emotion, affection,... has often impacted...

Shachah

originally posted on June 24th in cfBlog1:
WHEW ! Fruitfulness and obligations..... family and seasonal duties.... I always slump off from my Blog with You at this time of year, Jesus. I am so glad that You are right here in me. We never lose track of each other... only of the letters and records of the joys that You grant me through the days going by. Sooooo many things I wanted to get here to record and thank You for since last week. Post-its everywhere with thoughts and blessings and lessons...

Shachah

You know, I have been a part of Hubbs' family for four full decades. Yesterday, one of my best friends from 7th grade, his cousin E, threw a party for her son who is Class of 2009. I've known E's husband since I was 16, too, before she ever met him. Her sister, A, another of Hubb's cousins, introduced me and Hubbs in June of 1972. We have all, finally, grown closer again over the past 3 years, after both me and Hubbs left them all behind to recover from a lifestyle way too potent in substance abuse,...

Shachah

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originally posted May 29th, 2009 by SHACHAH

Well, Jesus, I am getting new insights on the "love" connections in my walk in You. THESE, once full grown and fleshed out, may prove to be fruitful new bits of understanding. That would ROCK for me. I AM weary of going around this same ole dirt track, pacing...

Shachah