Hey!!

Long time no blogging.

Lately my life has been busy, lots of things happening at work and lots of things happening in my personal life. Both with my walk with God and relationships. Family wise and with my boyfriend.

Starting with the family - parents are worried about my relationship with my boyfriend - why? Because of the medical issues. Nothing life threatning but something that does affect day to day life in a small way. I get that is normal for parents to worry about their kids and specially when it comes to life choices and things like that. But that frustrates me the most is that they don't seem to be happy for me, they only see the problems that might happen. That makes me feel like they think I'm a teenager who's in love for the first time and not the 32 year old I am that's been through a couple of heartaches.

My boyfriend thinks my parents are acting un-Christian and judgemental and refuses to meet them. Well right now anyway. I do love him and I really really believe that God brought us together but as it is right now I feel like I'm in the middle of a wrestling game and I have to defend my boyfriend in one corner and I feel like I have to defend my parents in the other corner.

And then there's me being mad at myself and thinking - Did I cause this? Have I handled this wrong? Should I have been quiet about the medical issues til they met him and got to know him? Should I have been quiet and said nothing when my boyfriend asked me why I weren't feeling good and said nothing about my parents worries? If I had - would everything be different and everyone happy??

I've prayed over this so many times (still do) and earlier I've heard so clearly from God - "I'm with you". That's what I'm clinging to at the moment. That God is with me through this and in the future.



I will not be moved - Natalie Grant

God bless!!

Nilla