This are so strange now, I'm so not sure if it is strange in a good or bad way. They are just strange. I can see that I am slowoly changing but I can't see what I am changing into, only that I am changing. Although some part of me are changing there are some parts that are refusing to change. Parts that I want to change but they are fighting me. They do not want to change because they are comfertable where they are. When I look at myself and what I was like last year I can see that I am a little...
Ok I know some people right now are wondering what is going on with me, because I have been acting a little off and also because of two of my recent posts.
So for those who want to know. I'm going to tell you or at least try and tell you.
I will give you a warning now, this post will most likely be long, I will be upsetting for some, it wll not be a pretty happy post. If you can't handle that, or dont want to see that side of me, then STOP reading right now. ...
Arrrrrrrggggggggggg. I tried to go to church today, got there and by the time the message came, I couldn't listen because it was taking all my effort not to panic. I was so close to one, my vision kept nearly going. It so sucks because I freaked out my brother and my mate because they had never seen me like that. I couldn't reply to them when they were trying to talk to me because if I did that would of been it, I would of had a Panic attack. I was using every technique I have to help me but none...
Why is it dark
It was light
But now its pitch black
Can't find a way out
Where am I
Who am I
What am I
I'm slipping into the darkness again, I can feel it, but I don't know how to stop it. Help, I dont want to go back, most days it feels like getting up is too much work, but I do becasue if I don't I will fall behind. Why is this happening again, why. I don't understand this God, why have I been pitched back into the darkness,...