You've made me feel stupid. I thought I knew you. I thought I loved you. It's been ten years since I last saw you, but I thought I still loved you.
You were lost to me. I did not know why, but you ended up in jail. I did not know you as the kind who could possibly be there. I thought you were different.
You were my knight in shining armor, the one who rescued me from those who hated me. When all others had forsaken me, you were still mine. I gave you my love even though I did not see you often. I only saw one side of you and did not know who you truly were.
On that last fated day, you told me to wait for you. And wait I did. Until I found out that you were in jail, and I decided I could wait no longer. I needed you, or someone very like you. I decided that if I was still single when you got out, then perhaps I'd be yours. But I wouldn't wait just for you.
For years I searched for a clue as to what happened to you. I finally found it yesterday, and when I did, I was shocked. I don't know how you could have written that. It wasn't what I would have expected of you.
Ten years have passed since our parting. I thought I still loved you, but yesterday I found out that it was just a fantasy. It wasn't you I loved. It was a little girl's dream of falling in love that I loved. You were a fantasy. I turned you into someone who you were not, and fell in love with them. The man I thought I knew would not have done what you did.
I am married now, and I need to realize there is no future for us. There never was. Because you were a fantasy.
You were lost to me. I did not know why, but you ended up in jail. I did not know you as the kind who could possibly be there. I thought you were different.
You were my knight in shining armor, the one who rescued me from those who hated me. When all others had forsaken me, you were still mine. I gave you my love even though I did not see you often. I only saw one side of you and did not know who you truly were.
On that last fated day, you told me to wait for you. And wait I did. Until I found out that you were in jail, and I decided I could wait no longer. I needed you, or someone very like you. I decided that if I was still single when you got out, then perhaps I'd be yours. But I wouldn't wait just for you.
For years I searched for a clue as to what happened to you. I finally found it yesterday, and when I did, I was shocked. I don't know how you could have written that. It wasn't what I would have expected of you.
Ten years have passed since our parting. I thought I still loved you, but yesterday I found out that it was just a fantasy. It wasn't you I loved. It was a little girl's dream of falling in love that I loved. You were a fantasy. I turned you into someone who you were not, and fell in love with them. The man I thought I knew would not have done what you did.
I am married now, and I need to realize there is no future for us. There never was. Because you were a fantasy.
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