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So, we moved from sunny So Cal to a location that I cannot disclose about 2 years ago. I am finding myself excessively homesick. I miss the beach so much. I want to take my son to the beach and breathe in the ocean air.

I guess I am depressed. I hate not knowing where things are, I feel like a homebody because I don't understand the "things to do" around here...and the weather sucks.

I am having a horrid time finding a home church. I hate the shopping as...

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I did not write the following blog. Heather Veitch did. I choose to post it here in quotes as it touched me so much. I could say the exact same thing of my own life....She put it so beautifully....


"I thank God so much for my life. I thank him for every minute that he allows me to be here.

I was thinking about my life and how wild the whole thing has been. I feel like I have experienced so many different ways to live. Often people feel sorry for me because...

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"What is wrong with you?!" were the words that came out of my 2 year old's mouth tonight when getting ready for bed I asked him to stay in his room while I went to get something. He followed after me instead of staying in his room and I asked him if he needed to go to the corner or if he could go back to his bedroom on his own to which he replied, "What is wrong with you?" Part of me wanted to laugh but the other part of me realized that he was mimicking something that my husband...

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Yet another PTSD issue is bothering me. For years now I have had times where I just "blank out" and cannot remember facts like my wedding date, my phone number, names, chunks of time in the past, etc. Not only is it annoying but there are times where it is embarrassing. I find that if I am under stress or pressure I will just blank out.

The other day I was watching my sister's 2 kids and my son (STRESS!!!) and my brother in law came over to pick up his kids and we were...

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Thought I'd share a bit more about what PTSD is like for me.

A big area that I still struggle with is feeling like I can never relax and often feeling like my life or the life of those that I love will be cut short somehow. It's kind of hard to explain as it is not a conscious thing.

For example I often find myself focusing on preparing for the future for my son if I die. While preparation is good and normal, there comes a point where it is not healthy.
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