peacechild4

I prayed for you.. now your happy.. you were dying.. or wanting too.. now your healed.. and happy in a relationship or so it seems.. do you even realize my situation.. I am still waiting for my prayers to be answered.. its hard for me.. its so very hard.. but you cut me off.. you forgot me.. do you know how blessed you are?? Do you know what its like to be hurting and pray for someone.. and they get their prayers answered and I still wait.. and nothing.. no acknowledgement... that hurts.. it hurts...

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Away on holidays with two of the children.. one with their dad at home.. one daughter staying in our house.. and one adult child lives in another city..

All over the place.. I mean I should be happy we are on holidays.. in the top part of Australia.. and I am.. we rarely get away..

I guess with the extra time to think.. not always thinking the right things.. then the kids play up.. and I cannot sit and do anything on my own without feeling extremeley guilty.. sigh.....

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In the last little bit a guy from USA has gotten very friendly with me.. saying lovely things.. and he is a believer.. he is lonely and I am a friend.. we have so much in common and every day we speak... Tonight just now he asked if we could have a long distance relationship.. aww... a little sad.. but I just cannot.. it is his birthday today.. he invited me for a meal.. if only..

It doesn't seem fair to meet someone nice.. and a christian too.. close to my age.. and accepting of...

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Today someone at my church.. left a fifty dollar gift card in my pigeon hole... for the children and I.. we are going on holidays at the end of the month.. that was a gift in sorts too.. I will use the gift card then.. so we have some extra things for holidays..

I went out to a birthday party for my daughters friends sister.. lol.. turned one years old.. this baby was born seven weeks early and the pregnancy had trouble too.. she was a miracle baby.. I prayed for her.. and even though...

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Don't know if anyone reads this.. so not sure how personal I can get.. but I just wish things would settle down emotionally.. and I just need to jot it down somewhere..

My ex-husband took the kids for a few hours today.. nice.. but I cannot be around him.. not that I don't want to be.. I am just shocked at myself around him.. I just start flirting.. I seem to not have any self control.. its embarrasing.. we almost went all the way but I got control of myself.. my gosh.. I am divorced...

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